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What's up Massy? - Ch4
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A year later, it's about time to give another update on my life.
It's about time we move on to 2020. Big changes have happened, big changes will happen.Work
I had a near half year long job experience from early February till the end side of June 2019.
I was working at a familiar game company as a game artist. I did concept art, concept designs, line art for most of the pieces and a few things i even got to color myself. It was a great experience, through which i improved a lot, got more ideas for where i should improve too, both for my work and myself as an employee.
But i had schoolwork that needed to be done at the same time. Our work schedule at the game company was very tight and coming home to the stress of schoolwork and grinding it towards completion...
Caught me in burn out, once my contract at the game company ended.
School
I didn't graduate in spring, like I had been told I could, or believed myself that i would. I was contacted by teachers that they found out i have to do some extra courses before i can actually graduate.
Which i accepted, thus I waited for fall, when the semester would begin.
I was depressed and exhausted due to the burn out, and when August finally came, I felt excited to have some human activity in my life.
But the class i was put into, was the worst one our department had experienced. The class atmosphere was so hostile, negative and immature, I was the only one actually doing every assignment and having to present them in front of the class. I was mocked for it, which although I knew was their immaturity, humiliated and scarred me. This happened every week throughout fall and drove me to skip going to classes.
I ended up crying in the morning, not wanting to feel that hostility for doing what was hard for me to achieve in the first place, getting my schoolwork done properly.
Either way, i managed to get removed at the end and worked on my courses on my own. I've completed almost every course now, with only two minor assignments left to do.
I am graduating this Christmas.
Depression
Like I said, I was depressed after my contract ended. Depression carried heavy through the bullying I went through in classes.
My granted psychology meetings ran out in spring and I have been in dire need of therapy, but am unable to get any due to how expensive it is per month. I don't have that money.
I'm still greatly depressed, but I'm fighting it to my best ability by at least trying to complete school and get commissions done, reach the holidays and spend that time with my loved ones.
Anniversary
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My 3rd anniversary with 
is this New Year's!
I have never been in a relationship this long. Never been in a relationship that held together as amazing as it has been with Skye.
I love them a lot and I don't think I could've made it this far without them in my life. In fact, I'm positive I'd be damn lost in my life if i didn't have the stability and support, of what our relationship brings to my life.
It's my first time getting to spend anniversary together in person with Skye. They're flying to Finland to visit me on Christmas eve, staying till' early Jan, so i'll be busy around then, making sure i appreciate my love to the fullest.
It means a lot to me. :']
Future
I've worked hard to finish all my schoolwork despite difficulties, work on gifts for everyone who well deserved them.
I will finish the last commission this week and then take a break from commissions, so i can focus on the holidays and my anniversary.
Going to be looking for work, make more solid plans for my art in the meantime and try to progress my life somewhere.
Thank you everyone, for supporting me and standing by me.
Thank you as well to everyone, who have just joined the journey of watching my art grow.
Make best of your time here and please don't give up on yourselves.
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!! COMMISSIONS OPEN !! 2019
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Come and get yourself some high quality art of your characters and help a struggling artist get through another year!
I need help funding my relationship and upcoming surgeries. Would also loooove to update my video card, since everything is glitching and looking corrupted, but priorities first.
Check out the info below and hit me up!
:bademoticon: Starting with unlimited slots!:bademoticon:
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DONATION REWARD ART | STREAM
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Come check me out, hang with us and if you're able of enough generosity, shoot those donations and get yourself some sweet art!
If you like to see my art more regularly, hit that follow and stay updated for my streams!
Instead of uploading complete pieces, i tend to work more on finishing long process artwork on Twitch streams these days.
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STREAM ONLINE!
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Come hang out with me, while i struggle with Hisoka print and other fan art illustrations!
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DONATION REWARD ART | STREAM ONLINE
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HEY GUYS!
Come chat and chill with us! Maybe you can even donate and get some art for yourself!
All donations above $10 will get a drawing of any character of choice.
$50+ donations get colors!
Check the rules on the stream page, they're pretty simple!
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